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Memory-Pleasure Continuum

"The Destruction of the Revolving Door of Pleasure" [Thompson, 16/07/2026]

It was the 16th day, July 2026. On this beautiful rainy morning, as a morning person who had woken up 4am, I read for two hours and went back to bed. In these moments of "not completely asleep & just meditative", passing-was this thought of some event that had very slight-sensation of pleasure memory with it, and trust me when I say in the moment of writing this I could no longer remember the exact thought, this should tell you how dangerous and unreliable the movement of thoughts are.
In the instance as that event of thinking was on and going what caught my attention to even make this great deal of it came at the point that I noticed a movement in my pajamas, an erection was building up, but immediately I took a pause and asked this single question; What is the relationship between memory and pleasure?
Memory is the store of things learned and retained from an organism's activity or experience, whereas Pleasure is generally referred to as enjoyment or gratification.
This is a caricature mathematical reduction of what happened: Memory + Psychological contact + sensation + Pleasure = Erection (by context).
As a young man who never let's his intrusive thoughts to have an endless parade I am aware the thoughts that are in-exhaustably moving and replicating themselves in my mind are not some absolutely alien memory, a great percentage of them (or better yet, all of them) are results of my own experience, and I can point to the different possibilities of how I am personally connected to their creation. Then, why is their regurgitation bringing about an immediate movement in my loins or the impulse to act in any case as they may suggest?

In the manner that many rivers irrespective of the names they go by, and their contents empty themselves in the sea, likewise these memories which the Mind plays with as thoughts in my idle time has been generated with my organismic objects of knowledge (the Eye, Ear, Nose, Touch, Taste) and are deposited into the Mind. So, as the sea is the lord of the rivers so is the mind the lord of the senses, in this moment of my brief internal inquiry while my eyes were shut, I was not worried about the Sea, this was a battle between my Mind and my senses.
I had to ask, if the Mind is the Lord of the senses, what is the Lord of the Mind?. In that moment my breath slowed down-following it my thought slowed down even faster and immediately I had an Insight, for the Lord of the Mind is the Breath.
Right there I told the Mind I have not entered this inquiry to throw blames, rather, I am much aware that the memories it plays with are my making, but what I will appreciate is a valid reason why the moments of its play with these memories causes an involuntary movement in my loins, and as it stood I got nothing (because a dog may go hours-worried with a bone but no matter how close to its limb the bone is, by no means will it mistake its limb for the bone and bite it instead).
From that moment on I told the Mind if it ever suggests actions of lust to my anatomy in the many ways that it goes about playing with memories, I will disconnect it from the Breath (and that was not a threat).
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There is this sense of man that he-becoming aware of it he has grown accustomed to, he has so cultivated and deified this aspect of his. Now, this deity draws on huge amount of man’s vital energy, and superimposes its will on and nourishes more than 90% of man’s desires, assertions, reactions, triggers or impulses. Identifying it makes available an enormous amount of energy to the individual.

Through watchfulness a man can identify and capture this sense of his-but I must warn you, capturing this sense will chatter most of your illusions, if you struggled with “any” addictions they will be dissolved, if you tend to apply effort to get results-that also will be turned around, if you struggled with indecision-clarity will be at your service.

-Thompson Moses-

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